I still can't believe

I have been a Mommy for 8months as of today! I never thought I would be here. From the time I was 14 and was told by my O.B. at the time that the solution to my not having periods was to go on birth control, which made little to no sense to me. This prompted me to do my own research and what I discovered was that I have classic (severe) case of PCOS. I knew what that meant, fertility drugs were the only way I was going to be able to have a child. We are not a rich couple, we live paycheck to paycheck and fertility meds were nowhere in our near future. I resigned myself to believing that we would probably never have children, I never wanted to start my family late in life which is when we would probably have the money to do fertility meds.

I went through 4 O.B.'s trying to find one that was willing to actually listen to me. When I discovered my current O.B. he was so receptive of what I had to say! After running some blood and discussing my symptoms with me he came to the same conclusion. I was never "officially" diagnosed with PCOS, because he didn't want to damage the chances of being able to bill the Insurance company for some of the testing he was doing =P What was even more exciting is he was open to trying Clomid with me!! Since he was not a specialist in fertility his hands were tied in many ways, but he agreed to do some cycles on it with me.

Cycle after cycle was a failure, the first 2 didn't even get me to Ovulate at all. By the time that we reached our last cycle I had given up hope. I was never going to be able to give DH a child and I was going to have to come to terms with that. We started discussing adoption through the Foster Care system, which is something I have always wanted to do. As our last cycle ended and my temperature on my chart dropped, I gave up and started planning my "Christina's Infertile, Let's Get Drunk Weekend". Next thing I know, my temperature jumped back up, I tested and low and behold there was 2 lines! Yes 2! I always imagined that if we got a positive I would come up with some cute way to tell DH and even had it all planned in my head. When it happened though, all I could do was go "Um, is that a line?? I think I'm seeing things??" Not exactly sweet or memorable, but I really though I was loosing my mind!! DH saw the line, but was unconvinced. I stopped on my way to work and picked up some First Response. I took one almost immediately after going in and it was positive too! I couldn't believe it! Now, 17 months later I have this gorgeous little boy who I just can't get enough of. He amazes me everyday and I do not want to miss a thing! I love him so much, never imagined that this level of love existed.

Happy 8 Months Nolan Fredrick!

Hectic couple of months

I guess its a good thing this blog is purely for my own amusement since I can never seem to keep it updated on a regular basis =P
Nolan is 11weeks old today <3 I can not believe so much time has passed already. I returned to work yesterday, the hardest thing I have had to do in a long time. I miss my little man so much it is ridiculous!!
Hubby started his job today working for a billboard company =D I am SO excited!! If all goes well and the money is decent I may very well be able to quit working!!! I am keeping everything crossed that I have!!!
Nolan noticed the toys on his bouncey for the first time yesterday!! He was smiling, cooing, and swatting at them!! Everyday he does something new and I am in absolute awe of him!!
My awesomely amazing, loving husband has decided that he wants to have another one o_O Um, yeah I don't think so. Not anytime soon, and quit possibly not EVER!! I love Nolan with all my heart and he is my absolute everything... but I am nowhere near ready for another baby and I doubt I will ever be ready to TTC again... Especially if we have to go along with the Clomid... I just don't know if I can handle it on an emotional level..
No pics today since I am at work, but I will see what I can do when I get home this evening =P

Birth Story, better late than never!!!

Okay so I am a little late but here it is....
I had an OB appt on the 7th my BP was up and I had gained 7pds in fluid retention... I was sent back to the hospital again for my 2nd observation.... After some hours there it was determined that we could not get my BP under control and were going to need to induce... At 4P.M. on the 7th we started Cervidil which immediately got my contractions coming at 2/3 mins apart. I spent a very sleepless night in the hospital unable to get any sleep due to my BP being checked hourly and the contractions that were steady and continuous. At about 6A.M. I had only progressed to a 1or2cm, at about 7:30A.M. they started pitocin, upping it continuously every hour. By 8P.M. I had only progressed to a 4; my BP was still rising and his heart rate kept fluctuating so we (my husband and I) consented to a C-Section =( Nolan Fredrick was born Feb 8th at 8:34P.M. weighing in at 6lbs 12oz and the most gorgeous baby I had ever seen <3
Here is our little man!!

Ugh... Keep forgetting to update!!!

Life has been crazy and updating this blog has fallen into the background... I was hoping to have it to refer back to when I started Nolan's baby book, but alas pregnancy has wiped my brain cells!!!
Our biggest adventure lately has been remodeling Nolan's room... A little late in the game I know, but hubby decided at the last minute it had to be done... Even though we had agreed not to worry about it right away, Men!!!
So... Without further ado, our work in progress!!
Before and In Progress!!!All Painted!!!
Still have to put the carpet down, install the shelves, and get the closet put back together!! All in all I am happy with the progress =D

Some days I still can't believe it

It's amazing I am over halfway through this pregnancy and I still have days where I look at my belly and go "Is this for real??" In approximately 4 1/2 months I am going to be a mom!! I spent so many years thinking this was never going to happen, that there was a good chance I would never have a child that its just hard to get past those thoughts.

My OB has labeled me Chronic Hypertensive (which just means an early onset of high blood pressure) The blood pressure pills seem to be doing there thing, my blood pressure has not been up like it was since I started them... Although still slighted elevated a heck of alot better!!! He was pretty 'frank' in expressing to me that there is a good chance I will have an early onset of Pre-Eclampsia. So I am on a low salt diet, walking (as much as I can), making sure to drink plenty of water, and watch my weight gain. He said in doing these things I can hopefully hold it off for a little while or at the very least if it does happen I will be the healthier for it!!!

I will have to be getting blood work done to make sure the blood pressure pills are not causing my platelets to drop. If they are I will have to go off of the blood pressure pills, because a drop in platelets could cause me to bleed out while in labor... I don't know what we do about the blood pressure if it comes to that, its not like I can just walk around with elevated blood pressure cause that can cause its own set of problems.

I have another U/S on the 1st which I am looking forward too =D Happy to get to see my little guy again, I love being able to not only feel his movements but watch them as well!! He is a little acrobat that is for sure, moving everywhere and kicking/punching me all over the place!!! The movements William can feel are still very few since my placenta is anterior my OB told me to expect that.... Hopefully soon we can both regularly enjoy the movements of our little miracle; Nolan Fredrick =)

It's a BOY!!

So we found out on the 4th that we are having a lil boy!! DH is beyond excited I can't even begin to describe =P We almost didn't think he was going to be able to tell us, because apparently I am not U/S friendly LOL but luckily he moved just right so we could see his dinkie!!! I was right about his positioning too his head is right at my belly button and his feet are in my crotch!! I tell you I have experienced much more pleasant things than kicks to my crotch *eyeroll*

No good U/S pics to share they hardly showed anything interesting at all, so I have to go back on Nov 1st for another U/S so my OB can finish getting his measurements! My blood pressure was up AGAIN at this last appointment so he put me on blood pressure pills to see if that gets it under control... I am hoping so... I am way too early into this pregnancy to be labeled as high risk already...

Lost 2 more pounds this last appointment, so I am hoping by the next one I will at least put on a few pounds FX!!! Anywho... No more updates for now =)

Movement!!!

I am so aggravated with myself that I haven't had time to update this, but better late than never ;) I have officially started to feel this LO move!!!! It started on Thursday at 19weeks 1day!!!! I still can't believe it! Now that he/she has started moving he/she seems to never stop LOL I am now just waiting until they are strong enough for DH to feel them, but at the rate this is going that should not tbe too much longer... Or at least I hope!!

So the big day is Monday!! We get to find out whether we are joining Team Pink or Team Blue! I am still voting Pink LOL I am really really hoping that this LO chooses to cooperate so that we can see the goods =P Either way though it will be nice to get to see him/her... Man am I tired of having to say him/her LOL It gets really old!! Well nothing else interesting going on right now, better get back to laundry!