Saturday, December 12, 2009

Waiting to O or Maybe I already did??

Well didn't get to temp this morning because I forgot I had put my cell phone on silent last night =(
But my temp did take a slight upward curve yesterday so I guess only time will tell.. I don't think I O'd though cause that would just be way too soon!!
Surprisingly while on the 100mg I had less side effects than when I was on 50mg... I thought that was kind of weird, but hey I am not complaining lol =D Oh and we are supposed to be BD'ing like crazy but nooo I had to get a yeast infection... Rrrrr...
I am really hoping this cycle works!! It is kind of frustrating knowing we are doing everything we can and are still failing =( I am just trying to stay positive!! I know how badly DH wants this and I really want to make this a reality for him, that the idea that we may not is just horrible!!

Monday, November 30, 2009

All New Cycle!!

AF finally started today ((hooray)) Took a whole 12 days since I finished the Provera =( but oh well it is what it is =) I start Clomid 100mg on Friday!! Let's keep our fingers crossed that it works this time!!
Good news, William possibly might have a new job!!!! It is nothing fancy just a mechanic position, but something is better than nothing! I am so excited at just the possibility that he might have a regular steady job!! It'll be a real help if all works out so that when we do manage to get pregnant I can definitely take a full 3 months off with the baby. Which is what I really want to do, that way I would have time to spend with the little one before I have to get back to the rush rush of daily life =)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Awaiting AF AGAIN!!

Day 3 past last Provera pill =) Finally got my doctor to call in my new 100mg Clomid! YAY! Hoping AF shows soon so that we can get this show on the road!! I am so ready for this to work! Just to O would make me so very happy... My period is going to be here soon because my (.)(.)'s have been so extremely sore it is ridiculous!! But I suppose thats the price we pay for TTC =)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Clomid 50mg... BUST!!

Well officially gave up on 50mg =( Started Provera again tonight and I guess I will be doing it all over again at 100mg... Well maybe that is... The doctor didn't really want to do the 100mg before DH got his S/A, but were not going to be able to do that right away due to his work... Calling him again tomorrow to see if he will be willing to start us on another cycle before getting it done!!
Keeping our fingers crossed that the 100mg works!!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

So... now waiting to O...

Well... Finished Clomid (50mg) this past Friday, been taking OPK's since Monday and all negative... Although the one I took today had a line on one side that looked almost as dark as the control line... Of course instead of waiting to dump out the cup to use the digital to double check... I dumped it like an idiot, now I have to wait another 4 hours to do it all over again... Ugh...
Oh BTW: I bought the CB digitals to use as my back up for when I thought I had a + on the IC.... Since I am oh so very bad at interpreting lines.
Got my nails painted today they are red and black... Very tasteful though so that after Halloweens over I don't have to run out and get them repainted right away... Dressing up for work on Friday and I have a Halloween Party that we are going to Friday night so I will most definitely post some pics =) My costume is pretty lame... It is some medieval, gothic, robe-hooded type thing... Its the only thing I could find that would be 'work appropriate' and I am too cheap to buy another one just to wear to the Halloween Party. So oh well, it'll work =) I wasn't going to drink because I didn't want to mess up my temps but I might just break that... It's been a kind of depressing week thus far..

Thursday, October 15, 2009

CD #1!!!!

Well AF showed today!! I was oh so excited to begin my first cycle on Clomid!! Keeping fingers crossed that it does indeed cause me to O!!! Now I just have to get through the Provera induced period and oh so much fun side effects of the Clomid!! My biggest bummer about the idea of Clomid not working (at 50 mg) is the fact that I will have to go through another dose of the Provera.... Ugh... that was the most miserable 10 days ever!! I had migraines, nausea's all the time, overwhelmingly tired, and just flat out bitchy the whole time!!
Poor DH is probably going to end up pitching a tent in the backyard to get away from me if the Clomid is just as bad lol I honestly never thought I would be this excited with the thought of putting my body through hell, stretching it beyond belief, and going through miserable child birth!! But damnit I am!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Waiting for AF!!

Took last Provera pill last night and am now officially waiting AF to show!!! Time for a whole new cycle and Clomid!!! Staying positive, keep telling myself that this is most definitely going to work!!
I just hope AF doesn't take too long to get here.... Like Tomorrow!!! No cramps or anything yet (some backaches but I have been having that for like 3 0r 4 days now) So she'll probably take her sweet ass time showing up when I actually want her =(

I did some researching today and have made the decision to become a CD'er (Cloth Diaperer) Early? Yes I know, I just want to be prepared!! It is a really nifty thing, great for the environment, and so damn cute!! It's alot cuter than what I thought initially!! I always thought it would be icky and complicated, but its really not!! So looking forward to that. Hubby things I am a little crazy but thats okay. He said we will do whatever I decide and I have decided to CD =)

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Halfway Through Provera

Day 5 of Provera and man do I feel like crap!! I am bloated, cranky, constantly hungry, multiple headaches, etc.... But I am trying to stay positive!! Hopefully AF will come quickly after I get done with pill number 10 so we can move onto our new cycle and first round of Clomid!! He is starting me on 50 mg which he doesn't think will work, but he doesn't want to start me off on anything higher just in case :) I am okay with that, he says if it doesn't work we bump up until 100 mg and than 150 mg... If it doesn't work at 150 mg he will probably refer me to an RE... Supposed to be getting a S/A done before this cycle starts, but I don't think we are going to have the money... Trying to come up with it, so we will see!

Other than that mess, my life has been pretty uneventful. I am getting so excited and scared at the same time. Excited that this time next month I could be on my way to being a mommy. Scared that the Clomid won't work and we will have too look into other options. None of which we can afford :(
Hubby is being really supportive though and even though I know how much he wants a child he has already acknowledged the fact that it may not be a possibility. I was worried that my possible inability to give him a child may do serious damage to our relationship, but so far he seems okay with it. He says he loves me regardless of the outcome of the next few months =) He is such a sweetheart!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

After much time and resentment I decided I needed an outlet-hence the blog.... William (DH) and I have been TTC since January 09... I went to the doctors today for my yearly and decided to discuss with him that we were TTC even though it hadn't quite been a year yet... Based upon my 4 to 6 month cycles and a couple other things he suspects PCOS... I knew it was a possibility, I have known from the beginning that something was wrong and it would be difficult for us to get pregnant. I thought maybe knowing what the problem was would help make me feel better, but for some reason it doesn't.

I go back next Wednesday(my next day off) to discuss the results of the 5 Viles of blood they took from me today =( Which took the lady 3 pokes to get, because instead of listening to me and using a butterfly needle on my hand she decided she felt the need to poke each arm at least once with the big needle just to confirm she couldn't get blood that way!!! Doctor wants to put me on Clomid for a few cycles to see how that works out, which is great but I am worried that it won't work.... I am a pessimist what can I say? If it doesn't going to an RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist) isn't even an option because my insurance doesn't cover any infertility treatments and DH and I just can't afford the treatments out of pocket.

DH keeps telling me to look on the bright side and try to stay positive and I am, I really am it is just so damn hard! I guess I will try to hold my sanity together for a little while longer and keep hoping to see a BFP very soon =)