Wednesday, October 28, 2009

So... now waiting to O...

Well... Finished Clomid (50mg) this past Friday, been taking OPK's since Monday and all negative... Although the one I took today had a line on one side that looked almost as dark as the control line... Of course instead of waiting to dump out the cup to use the digital to double check... I dumped it like an idiot, now I have to wait another 4 hours to do it all over again... Ugh...
Oh BTW: I bought the CB digitals to use as my back up for when I thought I had a + on the IC.... Since I am oh so very bad at interpreting lines.
Got my nails painted today they are red and black... Very tasteful though so that after Halloweens over I don't have to run out and get them repainted right away... Dressing up for work on Friday and I have a Halloween Party that we are going to Friday night so I will most definitely post some pics =) My costume is pretty lame... It is some medieval, gothic, robe-hooded type thing... Its the only thing I could find that would be 'work appropriate' and I am too cheap to buy another one just to wear to the Halloween Party. So oh well, it'll work =) I wasn't going to drink because I didn't want to mess up my temps but I might just break that... It's been a kind of depressing week thus far..

Thursday, October 15, 2009

CD #1!!!!

Well AF showed today!! I was oh so excited to begin my first cycle on Clomid!! Keeping fingers crossed that it does indeed cause me to O!!! Now I just have to get through the Provera induced period and oh so much fun side effects of the Clomid!! My biggest bummer about the idea of Clomid not working (at 50 mg) is the fact that I will have to go through another dose of the Provera.... Ugh... that was the most miserable 10 days ever!! I had migraines, nausea's all the time, overwhelmingly tired, and just flat out bitchy the whole time!!
Poor DH is probably going to end up pitching a tent in the backyard to get away from me if the Clomid is just as bad lol I honestly never thought I would be this excited with the thought of putting my body through hell, stretching it beyond belief, and going through miserable child birth!! But damnit I am!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Waiting for AF!!

Took last Provera pill last night and am now officially waiting AF to show!!! Time for a whole new cycle and Clomid!!! Staying positive, keep telling myself that this is most definitely going to work!!
I just hope AF doesn't take too long to get here.... Like Tomorrow!!! No cramps or anything yet (some backaches but I have been having that for like 3 0r 4 days now) So she'll probably take her sweet ass time showing up when I actually want her =(

I did some researching today and have made the decision to become a CD'er (Cloth Diaperer) Early? Yes I know, I just want to be prepared!! It is a really nifty thing, great for the environment, and so damn cute!! It's alot cuter than what I thought initially!! I always thought it would be icky and complicated, but its really not!! So looking forward to that. Hubby things I am a little crazy but thats okay. He said we will do whatever I decide and I have decided to CD =)

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Halfway Through Provera

Day 5 of Provera and man do I feel like crap!! I am bloated, cranky, constantly hungry, multiple headaches, etc.... But I am trying to stay positive!! Hopefully AF will come quickly after I get done with pill number 10 so we can move onto our new cycle and first round of Clomid!! He is starting me on 50 mg which he doesn't think will work, but he doesn't want to start me off on anything higher just in case :) I am okay with that, he says if it doesn't work we bump up until 100 mg and than 150 mg... If it doesn't work at 150 mg he will probably refer me to an RE... Supposed to be getting a S/A done before this cycle starts, but I don't think we are going to have the money... Trying to come up with it, so we will see!

Other than that mess, my life has been pretty uneventful. I am getting so excited and scared at the same time. Excited that this time next month I could be on my way to being a mommy. Scared that the Clomid won't work and we will have too look into other options. None of which we can afford :(
Hubby is being really supportive though and even though I know how much he wants a child he has already acknowledged the fact that it may not be a possibility. I was worried that my possible inability to give him a child may do serious damage to our relationship, but so far he seems okay with it. He says he loves me regardless of the outcome of the next few months =) He is such a sweetheart!