CH's never looked so beautiful!!

It seems I ovulated!!! Late that is, on CD21, but ovulated none the less! It's amazing how exciting this can be, considering we haven't achieved pregnancy yet I feel so much closer to our goal. William was confused when I woke up this morning and told him I had O'd over the weekend. We had talked and kind of both decided we had no faith in the 150mg and as I posted the other day our TTC journey would have been over.

Now that the 150mg worked, he wants to continue to TTC. Which is okay, but we've also got to deal with buying this place and remodeling it. I am just afraid of over whelming us. William is pretty adamant(in his way) about continuing to TTC. I am leaning towards yes at the moment only because we've come this far and I have put my body through too much crap to give up now!!

Our journey has come to an end...

It seems that the 150mg did not work.. Which means our TTC journey is coming to an end for some time.. We can't afford to go through the testing and treatment that a specialist would require =( It is unfortunate, but financially we just aren't able to swing it at this point in our life...

Although on the bright side, our land lords have finally decided to sell us this place. So that is exciting. We decided fixing up the house was more pertinent than funding our TTC journey at this point in our life. I will continue to save, but the saving will be split to fund our remodeling as well. Maybe over the next couple of years we maybe able to return to TTC'ing but for now, it's just not very realistic.

I am also putting a big step forward trying to loose weight, in the hope that the weight loss will stimulate some sort of response related to regulating my cycles. One can only hope, but loosing weight will be a slow process so once again only time will tell =(

So I Start...

150mg tomorrow.... Really hoping it works, because if not this is the end of our TTC journey for a while =( It's really frustrating to decide to have a baby and than your body will not cooperate with you... We can't afford to continue any further at the moment... Hopefully when our income tax comes in that will at least give us enough money to have some tests down to get a more definitive 'game plan' so to speak. If only the stupid insurance company would agree to cover just a little bit of the costs it would be so helpful, but unfortunately being infertile isn't important enough to be covered under HMO Insurance =(

Waiting to O or Maybe I already did??

Well didn't get to temp this morning because I forgot I had put my cell phone on silent last night =(
But my temp did take a slight upward curve yesterday so I guess only time will tell.. I don't think I O'd though cause that would just be way too soon!!
Surprisingly while on the 100mg I had less side effects than when I was on 50mg... I thought that was kind of weird, but hey I am not complaining lol =D Oh and we are supposed to be BD'ing like crazy but nooo I had to get a yeast infection... Rrrrr...
I am really hoping this cycle works!! It is kind of frustrating knowing we are doing everything we can and are still failing =( I am just trying to stay positive!! I know how badly DH wants this and I really want to make this a reality for him, that the idea that we may not is just horrible!!

All New Cycle!!

AF finally started today ((hooray)) Took a whole 12 days since I finished the Provera =( but oh well it is what it is =) I start Clomid 100mg on Friday!! Let's keep our fingers crossed that it works this time!!
Good news, William possibly might have a new job!!!! It is nothing fancy just a mechanic position, but something is better than nothing! I am so excited at just the possibility that he might have a regular steady job!! It'll be a real help if all works out so that when we do manage to get pregnant I can definitely take a full 3 months off with the baby. Which is what I really want to do, that way I would have time to spend with the little one before I have to get back to the rush rush of daily life =)

Awaiting AF AGAIN!!

Day 3 past last Provera pill =) Finally got my doctor to call in my new 100mg Clomid! YAY! Hoping AF shows soon so that we can get this show on the road!! I am so ready for this to work! Just to O would make me so very happy... My period is going to be here soon because my (.)(.)'s have been so extremely sore it is ridiculous!! But I suppose thats the price we pay for TTC =)

Clomid 50mg... BUST!!

Well officially gave up on 50mg =( Started Provera again tonight and I guess I will be doing it all over again at 100mg... Well maybe that is... The doctor didn't really want to do the 100mg before DH got his S/A, but were not going to be able to do that right away due to his work... Calling him again tomorrow to see if he will be willing to start us on another cycle before getting it done!!
Keeping our fingers crossed that the 100mg works!!